Thursday, October 27, 2011

I suck.

So here I am, again, way behind on blogging, on dieting, and on life in general.  I think I'm too wordy for my own good.  I feel like I have to plan out an hour just to type up a blog post.  Let alone all the time I was spending playing with my camera, taking pictures, downloading and editing them... it was a PITA.  And now where the kids aren't really napping anymore, and where I have to get Gwen on the bus, off the bus, and take care of Tony to-boot, I've just been in way over my head.  I guess the good news is that my mood's stayed positive, and I'm really, really, REALLY looking forward to our cruise.  That's in 2 weeks.  I currently am a chuba-loo 261.  So I ask you, and myself really, do I have what it takes to drop those 11 pounds and be 250 by the time we set sail?  Why not?  I just need to put my mind to it.  And stop binge snacking.  I think I've gained some muscle mass too, since my weight hasn't changed all that much but I somehow feel thinner.  Maybe it's just my body dysmorphia.  Who the fuck knows.  LOL!  I will will myself thin by seeing myself as thin.  Yeah.  And how many people does that work for??  HA!

Today I had crumb cake for breakfast.  But it was in the house, and at least I only ate half of my usual serving.  I had 3 cups of coffee, status quo, and am now dining on a lovely turkey sandwich packed into a flax seed, whole grain pita pocket with two handfuls of lettuce, 4 or 5 gherkins, and a slice of cheese.  And because I can't eat a sandwich dry, only a little light mayo and 3 giant squirts of Gray Poupon.  I was gonna eat the chicken that was in the fridge, but apparently it went bad two weeks ago.  So I'm glad I had fresh turkey on hand.  :-P  I also have a 20-ish oz cup of water and a handful of Bugles.  I like crunch.  And salt.  So what.

IDK what we're doing for dinner... I was thinking of opening a family sized can of Campbell's Chunky Chicken & Dumplings for the kids, but what do I eat?  Maybe a couple of eggs, or an egg sandwich.  Or maybe a freezer diet meal with a side salad.  IDK.  We'll have to see what I feel like when I get there.

So while the blog might not be as pretty, or as wordy (much to your chagrin, right?) anymore, I am going to try to get back in the swing of things.  At least to keep me on track until the cruise.  Which is 16 days from today.  Though I'll be flying to San Juan in 14 days.  Yikes.  Yippee!  Here goes nothing...

Much love,