I AM Still on the Bandwagon!

Sorry I've been MIA.  Like I said, I got off track after being sick, and the last two weeks and this week are ridiculously busy.  Well, for our world anyway.  I won't even get a break until Thursday!  I've also been staying really busy around the house, which is great!  I had been sick since Thanksgiving, on and off, leading to a sinus infection, with a week off before getting the flu, so I am REALLY behind on my household chores.  My house is a shit hole, and we still have some things to unpack and/or organize.  I'm way behind where I wanted to be by this point.  So having the energy and ability to do work is really working out for me.  Yesterday I put away ALL of my laundry.  ALL OF IT!!!  I feel like a Goddess.  Like, who actually gets their laundry washed, dried, sorted, folded, AND put away all in one day?  ME!  Though there were like 6 clean baskets of laundry sitting in my bedroom for the last two months, so... yeah.  It's gone now though, and it's going to be lovely to look through a closet again instead of digging through a basket for clean undies.

I AM still working on losing weight, making smart decisions and being healthier.  I'm currently at 263.5, so I haven't really lost anything, but I have been able to maintain the weight loss I DID achieve while I was so busy, and out and about, so that makes me feel good.  I haven't been super careful, or choosy about my food, there have been points of weakness and junk food and cheating (it is that time of the month).  But I'm okay with that.  I have never wanted my weight loss to be a quick drop.  I don't have a time goal, really.  I want to lose weight slow enough so that I don't get saggy skin.  Plus, the slower you lose the weight the more likely you are to keep it off, and that is my main goal.  To keep it off and find a new attitude and lifestyle with food that keeps me HEALTHY.  Sans saggy skin.  So I'm trying to get back on track.  I went grocery shopping on Saturday and spent $240 on healthy foods.  Which almost gave me a heart attack.  Pft!  I can't wait for summer, I'm thinking of starting a veggie garden.  And even if I don't, the farmer's markets provide fresh, ripe, local fruit and veggies for DIRT CHEAP.  And that's exciting!

All that told, I'm going to try to blog regularly again.  At LEAST three times a week.  I figure I can make time for my self, my feelings, and my weight loss buddies at least that often.  Because I really do love blogging.  I am a person who loves to hear herself talk, and I have no outlet.  Besides talking to myself, which Tony hates.

Let's see... what'd I eat yesterday... One of the best parts of taking pictures of all my food to post here was that it helped me remember what I'd eaten.  I've gotten out of the habit of taking pics, and maybe I should try it again.  It's time consuming, but it really helps keep me on track and excited about what I eat.  I can remember lunch and dinner on Saturday (a small Buffalo burrito with chicken from Boloco, which as it turns out, is in the 811-calorie-range.  Oops.  Dinner was meatloaf (made with 1/2 lean beef, and 1/2 turkey and low fat cheese, so I tried to be smart making my family a dinner by cutting calories from a normal recipe), a baked potato with butter and low-fat sour cream, and a shit ton of green beans.  I was so full by the end that I couldn't finish my potato!  Go me!!  One big change I've noticed is that my stomach has shrunk.  A LOT.  And I am trying REALLY HARD not to over eat and expand my stomach again.  Feeling full after half a plate of food is awesome!!  And before I forget I made brownies but with applesauce and only one egg, so they were fairly low fat... but I ate 4 or 5.  Oops again.), and everything I ate yesterday.  So here's how I stuffed my gullet on Superbowl Sunday:  Breakfast was Vanilla Almond Special K with a 1/2 cup of vanilla almond granola.  Lunch was a Kashi Cranberry Walnut bar and a banana (it was quick and on-the-go since I found myself starving in the middle of my laundry crisis and didn't want to lose my motivation by stopping to eat).  I had a chocolate bar for snack (not the best choice), and a handful of mixed nuts.  For dinner I had more nuts and a single french fry, and a single chicken nugget.  While watching The Black Eyed Peas destroy the Superbowl Half-Time show, I ate about a cup of ice cream, which was fucking DELICIOUS.  It tasted like real ice cream, and I'm a peanut butter whore.  It was the best light ice cream I've ever had.  Yay.  And instead of destroying a pint of Ben & Jerry's in one half hour, I ate a reasonable amount and was satisfied!  Yay!

I'm going to try to do better this week; weekends are always hard for me.  I want to get back on track and see the scale move again.  Because like I said, I'm not in it to lose 100 pounds in 4 months.  I'd rather take a year to do it, but not stress myself out over it.  So I'm ready to get back into it, now that Aunt Flo is on her way out, and taking her chocolate cravings with her.  I even find now that with snacking, I don't want junky food.  I'd rather have a handful of nuts or a cup of ice cream than 3 Devil Dogs.  Which is good.  Baby steps, but progress.

I hope to be back to blog soon, and I promise to try harder!!!

Much love,